um...is it that time of year again???

oh no new year resolutions...i don't like them or maybe they just don't like me. i always break them so i figured maybe if i say the opposite it will work because i usually say my new year's resolution is going to be to lose weight and get healthy, blah...blah...blah, i somewhat stick to the get healthy part but i never lose weight, i gain - lose - gain about the same 5 or 8 pounds every year. so i figured if i say something like this year i want to gain weight maybe it will take the opposite affect and i will start losing weight instead. well one can hope, right? okay so with all kidding aside i do want to get serious with my health in the year 2010. how will i do this?? well i'm hoping to rejoin weight watchers, get back into my exercise routine, and maybe even start a running program. this weekend i'm buying a punching bag with some boxing gloves too. so i'm just going to try to keep myself active, not over do things but slowly and surely work the whole 2010 year trying to lose this stinkin weight!! and of course i will track my progress and hopefully success stories on my blog.

happy new year!!!
cwak

tuffin it out

so its this wonderful time of the year again...the holiday season where you are surrounded by family, friends, and food...lots and lots of food! i don't really do any cooking or baking so i normally don't participate in those cookie baking parties or holiday pot lucks at work. so what am i afraid of...well the leftovers of course. i think my office is the main grounds for leftovers. for the pass two weeks there has been some kind of dish or plate full of cookies left on the counter. my desk is in the back so i'm constantly walking by this. i have held in my temptation pretty good, only had about two cookies, small pieces of course just to have a taste. it's been working out pretty well. but that's not the worst part...once i have finished work this week, i have then to go to christmas parties, open houses, and of course football parties too which everything will have lots of food! this is why the average american gain 7 lbs over the holidays and just when you think you can't eat anymore along comes new years eve parties. i think i would feel better with all of this if i could just work out or do some kind of exercise. i tried to take a walk with my dog the other night just to enjoy the outdoors and the big snowfall we had. well with me getting over foot surgery and the wetness turned into ice at that time, wasn't such a good idea. next time i think i will leave rocky home. he literally pulled me around on the ice because i just couldn't walk fast enough for him. so maybe when i try to do my next walk i won't take the dog, just until i can get back to my normal pace again. so here it comes and the best i can do is just tuff it out and be simple and don't pig out. we see what the results are next week. woohoo can't wait to see that.

happy holidays and happy happy new year!
cwak

this really sucks after surgery

okay so remind me never again to schedule a foot surgery during the holidays. what was i thinking...not really sure. so yeah on november 25th the day before thanksgiving i had extensive foot surgery done. the good part for me or so i thought was well i won't want to eat anything so i should lose some weight which i didn't but i'll get to that later. thanksgiving lasted all of like 2 minutes...enough time for me to eat some food. that wasn't the worst part, i took vacation time for a week and a half to recover from surgery so i thought i would be able to do stuff around the house or do some art work to keep me busy or something. wrong!! i was in so much pain that week i didn't even want to get up to go to the bathroom, i was hating life. my back was aching from laying bed for like ever and ever. luckily i had my wonderful iphone to keep me busy and i had a book to read but i wanted to get myself out of bed so bad. i'm still in some pain but not as bad but by the end of the day i am ready to just lay down and go to sleep. i can't wait for the day i have no pain so i can get back to the swing of things and oh yeah so i can drive. that's another thing, i haven't been able to drive so i couldn't go shopping or anything so i'm really behind on my christmas shopping and other things. i go around the house thinking i need that and i need this but i can't just go...and it sucks!

so about the weight loss thing...yeah that idea didn't work. i probably ate all of 300 calories a day for about the first five or six days after surgery. plus crutching around, going up stairs which is quite a cardio workout by the way. so when i got my cast off i had nothing to show for it i weighed the same as i did before the surgery. i was a little angry at myself because i was hoping for some kind of lost but i got over it quickly and said well i just have to really watch what i eat for the next few weeks because i won't be able to exercise. looking forward to physical therapy...not! but its something and it will make my foot heal quicker. once i feel comfortable walking then i can start exercising and i'm hoping to start a running program in march. but right now i have to get through this last couple of weeks of the holidays and get my foot back to normal well 90% normal. it was never normal to begin with.

happy holidays everyone!!!
cwak

to gym or not to gym

i find myself asking this question daily. i am actually one of those people who like going to the gym and like being active. i do feel better and accomplished after going...but the pain in my ankle lately is what's been keeping me from enjoying myself at the gym. i used to be able to do the elliptical machine at a level 12 but now i'm down to an 8 and it still hurts. i do guess something is better than nothing. in the end i usually just suck it up and go. i also do more then i intended to do so i really feel good about myself when i leave. i could just ice my foot and stop whining right now and this blog post would either not be here and end right now but that's no fun. i'm sure i'm not the only one that struggles with this question. how do you deal with it if it does come to mind? do you make yourself go or do you just say heck with it?

so yeah i'm having my surgery in a month, one perk is that it is the day before thanksgiving so while everyone else is stuffing their faces with turkey and pie...(pause oh no what did i do)...uh anyway i will be laying in bed probably just drinking ginger ale and maybe some toast depending on how my stomach feels. i'm very sensitive to anesthesia. i can sleep for days on that stuff and my belly hurts so much i can't eat. on average every sugery i've had i lose 8 to 10 pounds in a week because i don't eat. hopefully this surgery will work so i can get back to my daily workout routines like sports and jazzercise. the gym is good enough for now but i want to be able to do more. i'm saving up to get a bike. i really want to try mountain biking or just riding on some dirt trails.

cwak

OUCH!...that hurts!

that's me falling off the weight loss wagon but okay so once again (i think this is the fifth, six, maybe seventh time i'm going to say this) i'm back on the wagon. this stuff is hard, i obviously can only stay motivated for so long, i guess i have a short attention span or something. so i guess i can say i gained about 15 pounds from last time i blogged, i think it was up until mid september i was struggling with that 200 mark and then boom i just decided to go crazy and binge on lots and lots of food. i've been careful what i buy at the grocery store now. i keep my daytime meals to strictly fruits and veggies and then a small portioned dinner. i'm not usually a breakfast person never have and probably never will so i usually drink a shake or something that holds me to lunch. this seems to be working and plus with the pain in my ankle starting to get worst i can barely exercise. i do about the first 15 - 20 minutes of jazzercise and i walk my dog for about 20 minutes but even that is starting to get too unbearable. when i can i make it to the gym for a 30 minute bike ride or so and some weights. this is only the first week of doing it this way so i'll have to see how things go and post my weekly results as i go. i can say now that i will stick to this but i think i jinx myself everytime i do so i will say i'm just going to take one day at a time and see where things go from there.

cwak

i'm so excited...and i just can't hide it

today is a good day for me. i weighed myself this morning i believe i can finally say i have passed my dreadful plateau. couple weeks back i was so close but then i had to get a steroid shot and i gained about 10 pounds back. now i am slowly but surely getting the weight back down plus some! i've been working out so much and i have been really watching what i'm eating. i also have been replacing candy sweets with fruit so that's a big help and as always moderation. so this means i will make my goal for this month hopefully which is to be under 200lbs. it has been a frustrating past couple of months but i do not want to give up this time and so far it is paying off. so i finally have found my groove in the weight lost thing.

cwak

joining a gym

today i will be joining a gym, not sure which one but it will be some kind of gym. preferably one that doesn't cost much and offers what i need. i feel this will get my boost up for fitness, yeah. hahaha yeah okay maybe that will happen or not. but seriously i really enjoy maybe an hour or so just listening to my ipod with some fav tunes and exercising on the elliptical so will see what happens. plus the gym i'm trying out today i know someone that goes there so i guess i could use the accountability of someone always asking me "are you going to the gym tonight?" yeah sure i'll be there, let me wake up from my awesome nap i was taking and go to the gym. man i do ever so love my naps. i usually have time on the weekends now to take naps and that's it. not daily like i use to. anyway back to the subject at hand, i'm joining a gym today!! so now i have a gym membership, jazzercise, walking the dog, and the wii fit so do you think i will lose weight now. lol...geeze i would hope so. at least i won't get bored now with my exercise routines. okay well we will see how this plan goes. i will be posting pictures shortly that will show results. of course a couple of people lately have been noticing and asking me if i'm losing weight so that is definitely a good feeling.

cwak

got wii

okay i bought the wii this past weekend and can i say ouch!!! man my arms feel like i did strength training all day when really i played wii for about an hour. i'm excited about my new purchase and intend to buy the wii fit soon. my dog rocky goes crazy when i play only because he thinks i want to play fetch with the controller so i have to crate him when i'm playing or he likes to sit outside and chill. of course he's been dying for a walk but the dang rain won't stop. my wii age is 44 this week so hopefully i can get that down next week or something. i only have the one game which is wii sports but i love it. there's not much room to play right now but i plan on re-doing my condo within the next few months and that should leave plenty of room to play once i get that done. so when i get the wii fit i can do more exercising that way. i been taking a break from jazzercise recently and haven't played volleyball for a year because of my ankle. when i have my surgery done this september hopefully that will take care of things and i will be back to normal well maybe 90% normal...nobody is perfect. okay well its time for my starbucks break so i'm signing off.

cwak

starbucks and sushi!

it's heaven to me...anyway, so i started my new job about two weeks ago. things are going great. i'm pretty busy working on code, going to meetings and all. my favorite part of the day is lunch because i can order my starbucks coffee and have freshly made to order sushi all in one cafeteria. it's pretty awesome if you ask me. it has been my lunch everyday for the past two weeks. i guess where i'm getting at is that it has help me pass my plateau and i'm back to losing weight again. i usually eat sushi, a fruit and something/whatever else looks good. i was worried because having easy access to a cafeteria i was afraid that i would gain the weight back but i have been staying away from the bad stuff. besides i feel better through out the day if i don't eat all that heavy crap. so this is just a note for today. i have beat my plateau so i continue to lose more weight and more good news is i went shopping last night for more work attire and i went down two dress sizes. yeah me!

cwak

arrrgh! i have reached a plateau!!

okay now i have reached that dreaded point called a plateau. this stinks cuz i just would like to be under 200lbs right now and i can't because that nasty ol scale won't let me. so what i'm gonna do is walk my butt off this week and see if it gets me past that point plus i'm doing the jazzercise. so hopefully that will work. i hate plateaus and wish they never existed. i will post the result up next week. thumbs up if i get under 200lbs and a thumbs way down if i'm still above 200lbs. i guess the good thing is i have been at it for about three weeks now and i haven't given up. i still keep tryin at it and one of these days i will make it over that hump. i just really really hope that it is this week. pray for me.

cwak

weaknesses

ugh i hate this. i'm at a weird weak point right. i could so go for a spicy chicken from wendys or something. i miss feeling full but i guess feeling satisfied is better for ya. i think i'm going to buy some sushi for dinner tonight. i'm in the mood for something lite. i'm going out tonight to see my friend perform. he's an awesome singer and i think he will make it big. we are going to move to la and become roommates. that would be so cool. okay so back to weaknesses i think its hard for me to avoid this subject because i drive by wendys almost all the time and i don't really like anything there besides their spicy chicken and then right across the street is taco bell which i also can hang out there all day just eating tacos. but i've done good so far so i guess its just really starting to get to me at this point since i use to eat a meal from both places once a week maybe twice. so how do i stop this craving of fast food? i wish it would just go away. it seemed easier the first time around i tried losing weight to the point where i didn't even think about fast food. this stinks! someone should come up with a fast food place that only has low cal, low fat, low sodium foods. life would be simpler and so would freaking dieting. oh wait i'm not suppose to say that word so i guess i would say a change of lifestyle. i will say one thing i do feel a lot better health wise from not eating fast food. okay i did have a two cheeseburger meal at mcdonalds last saturday but it was so worth the trip not for the food but for other reasons i won't mention for the sake of my friends identity. love ya chris! so anyway i guess this craving will soon pass. i don't need the stuff, the stuff makes me feel bad so if i think about that then maybe this feeling would just go away. after this fast food craving goes away i will have to work on ice cream next!

cwak

starting to notice

okay so finally people are starting to notice that i'm losing weight. this is good so now i'm more motivated then ever to keep going. this make me happy, so so happy. anyway, my plan is working and its showing results. i can't wait till may when i will be about 30lbs. lighter which will make me around 170. that would be awesome before summer hits and all. i will feel more confident and wouldn't mind wearing a pair of shorts. i usually wear jeans all summer, no matter how hot it gets i always wear jeans. speaking of jeans i think i'm going to go jean shopping this weekend. the jeans i have on now look really baggy and really doesn't show my new slimmer look. i mean not that much slimmer but if i find the right pair of jeans it will show a difference. and this sunday starts of the biggest loser contest thing jazz it off at jazzercise class. both me and my partner's goal is to lose 30lbs. in the 3 month period that it is. so this is good, i think we can definitely do it and we can win.

cwak

time flies

so it's been a little over a month since i posted last. well no worries i have still kept up with my healthy eating habits and exercise. as a matter of fact i have boosted my exercise a little bit. yeah that's right i'm taking this weight loss thing serious now. i've been going to the gym about 3 to 4 times a week, plus jazzercise classes, and i have been walking my dog. sucks though because my dog ate my ipod wire so now i can't charge the battery and he also decided this morning to chew off my shoe laces of my brand new running shoes. argh! darn pet! i guess i could buy a new one but i don't have money right now. i find it hard to take walks/jogs without some noise. i guess the good thing is it does clear your head of some things when you walk/jog with no music but for me it works much better with the music. as far as going to the gym, can i say ouch! probably every muscle in my freaking body hurts so bad, but its worth it. its funny how pain can feel so good sometimes. i do about an hour of workout at the gym each time. 15min cardio, 20min abs, and about 20 to 25 min on arms and legs. then i drink my delicious protein shake after every workout and i also drink one in the morning with breakfast. it seems to be helping with my cravings. and i'm excited about jazzercise next month. first an extra class is starting on sunday called jazz to the max but its only for one month but still i get to do some activity on sundays now that football is over, which i'm having withdrawls. i crave for chicken wings, ginger ale, and sweaty men in uniform fighting over pig skin. then jazzercise is starting their own version of the biggest loser called jazz it off. sounds fun and i'm up for the competition. you get a reward each week for the team who loses the most weight. so who knows hopefully i can win one of those weeks. that ends may 31st but even if i don't win anything i will win something and that is self-esteem and lose more weight.

so i think i got this weight loss journey under control. i found my "calling" or routine and took control of my weight loss. hopefully this keeps up for a while and i will reach my summer goal which is to lose about 40 pounds before summer starts. i think that is pretty reasonable, i have lost about 16 pounds so far. i'm so excited about this and the weird part is i'm having fun. i also pick up one of my favorite hobbies again which is painting, photography, drawing and anything pertaining to art. so when i feel the urge to splurge i just work on an art project. i also take baths now and read a book, something about weight loss of course, to keep me motivated and to keep me going. i should have a picture of me shortly of how i look now, although it may not look much different then the first picture but you never know, i could do a side by side image too just to see if there is a difference. so i'm keeping up with this journey and tend not to fail, not this time.

cwak

happy new year!

yeah, its the new year and i can repeat what i did last year. trying to lose weight. same old resolution each year, but i think i can stick with it this time. i've been doing pretty good so far. i'm down 20lbs now. i will post a before and after photo of me shortly. i just have to find one when i was 20lbs heavier. i started something new though. i decided to cut out most red meats probably all red meats and fatty things and replacing them with more fruits and veggies. so far i've been doing good. i had a big piece of cake yesterday but i can't exclude everything. it will set me up for failure if i do, right? also, for the new year i have set up a strength training log to do at home. just a little extra since jazzercise has only 15 minutes of it in each workout. i'm starting that today, hope it works out and i can stick with it. i need someone yelling in my face constantly in order to stay motivated. maybe if i record myself yelling at myself and just play it when ever i do my workout that could help. i'm going to give that a try. hahahaha...yeah sure that will happen. i'll probably just laugh at myself because i'm not a very good yeller. i have a soft voice like that one lady from the police academy movie. well, this should be a fun and exciting year because i will look brand new and feel fantastic. i hope everyone out there has a good new year themselves.

cwak