why this time of year?

okay so why did i pick the hardest time of the year to try and lose weight. i wish i picked january and made it my new year's resolution AGAIN! but i guess i decided to get a head start. wow...what was i thinking. this whole diet thing or whatever to call it is harder than i thought this time. i thought it would be a total piece of cake i mean pie or maybe just simple since my will power is at its strongest right now but i was wrong. i splurged a little this past week because of those dang christmas parties. my bad! didn't think i would say yes to everything on the table but what the heck it is the holiday season so i can put my diet on a holiday as well right? i know...i know absolutely not because if i can do it for this holiday than i should do it for every holiday. not! i will never lose weight that way. so i have a plan and i hope it works. i'm not going to sweat the small stuff and not worry about losing. my biggest concern and goal over the next two weeks is not to gain weight but maintain it. i have lost about 18 pounds so far so atleast i lost a little before the new year. my slim down goal weight is somewhere between may and june. so we'll see what happens then. when i hit my 200lb mark i will post a new picture of me. wait? did i ever post a now picture, okay so i will do that too...tomorrow definitely. argh! it would just be easier if i was skinny.

cwak